50 Reasons Why You Shouldn't Commit Suicide

If you feel like crying, because of the self-reflection of what you've done, and what you're still doing, then it's okay; I also feel like crying too. I feel like crying because it's not a good thing to see you here, alone, broken in self-thought and emotions. Wanting to go back to a better time that, won't sadly happen. Using all these methods to feel something again, most of which aren't good for you. I don't want to. I don't want to think of all the people, let alone yourself, falling apart from one decision. From your parents to your friends, to probably even the person who sees you in class or your neighborhood every day. 

I know it hurts bad, the feeling of blaming yourself for the belief of living, to knowing what you doing is both physically and mentally wrong. But the lingering thoughts and lack of care from others just push that away, even when there is someone who is trying to help you. Even when you want to get up, do something, and feel - these self-thoughts linger, and end up influencing your words and choices, making decisions that lead to wanting to just quit life in general. I know that feeling, of consuming dread; it's possibly common to hear, but in the end, you are not alone with this. 

For the process, the inspiration of the book, and further unlisted details, please visit this website: <a href="https://phspawprint.org/3289/student-spotlight/new-student-created-digital-book-offers-advice-tips-on-importance-of-mental-health/">https://phspawprint.org/3289/student-spotlight/new-student-created-digital-book-offers-advice-tips-on-importance-of-mental-health/</a>

29. You'd have to say goodbye to all the music you've ever heard and became friends with!

(c'mon, I know u have some favorite music!)

I will always be by your side. I will never leave you alone again. I will never leave you to fall again or be lost.

Staying alone in a fight like this is self-harm, and continuing on in this pattern drains the strength out of you. I don't want to join your battle just to see you lose. Because there is hope in both me and you so that you can breathe and smile. So you can brush your tears and run with the wind. Taking note of the movement of the world, and the joy of seeing people you know. In its most honest, you have to push forward with just yourself as the catalyst - only you can make yourself change. But If one can give purpose to words, to save someone from themselves, and give purpose to music to hear, relate, and grow, then I am sure to say that you can give yourself a purpose to move on from your struggles. 

So keep these words, and build upon them. If you could empower a voice that will tell you to quit, you can create a voice that tells you to continue on living and feeling those around you 

(and do me a favor and share this book with others - I'm certain that this could be someone's revelation)

About the author: Jeffrey Saavedra Escamilla is an 11th Grade writer and artist from Parkdale High School, with a felt passion for helping others with his creations and hobbies. He is a strong speaker and presenter, an advocate of mental health, and an idealist for student participation in school, and he has reached schoolwide acclaim with his first and latest book: "50 Reasons Why You Shouldn't Commit Suicide."

(If there are any questions, comments, feedback, or concerns regarding the book, please contact me - Gmail - saavedraescamillajeffrey@gmail.com)

19. You'd also lose sight of time, and forget what you were thinking!

20?. You'd also lose sight of time, and forget what you were thinking..

12?. You'd also lose sight of thinking, and forget what you were time...

A? You'd also lose time of forget, and sight what thinking were you...

?. You'd also... lose .....um..., and ..forget ...you.... .....uhhh...

I could never truly feel the pain and suffering you often hold.

I could never criticize without ever knowing your thoughts and feelings. 

I could never confront the silent death being emitted from both of our fears and wishes. 

I could never share the scars given by both others and your own hands. 

I could never see myself becoming the person you desire to get out of your depression. 

I think I should put that number, which leads you to get help. 

A book about pain, regret, and transition.  

But if you're still here, I think it means we're beyond that realm. 

48. To lie back on one's own good memories of a happy moment in life...

50. Feeling the warmth of the sun, in the beautiful silence of life...

49. Feeling the soft, crisp wind under the shade of a tree...

32. You'd also be banished from all of space and time!

33. And be unable to count every single star!

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46. To never be surrounded by friends and family ever again...

47. Unable to have a single conversation with anyone or anything forever...

Oh, and when you're ready, talk to the people you know could help, and perhaps give these people a call. I think they'd all be more than happy to help you out: 

So please, stay alive, for the dearly beloved you know.

&nbsp;1-800-273-8255 988

(998 also applies to SMS/texting too)

43. To return back home, where we all are...

30. You'll never find the love of your life!

And also be bored in the middle of class! forever!

31. And never have the chance to take back any regrets made before from now!

Oh my, don't even get me started on what that's like...

50 Reasons Why You Shouldn't Commit Suicide

And a few more acknowledgments

I want to thank all of the people who found a way to not only overcome but forgive the emanant pain and suffering from their hearts, and let it shape their lives in a whole new way. The path to mental redemption isn't an easy one, however, it is possible, no matter the difficulty in one's life. This isn't a bout of shame, but to get that far without ever returning to a harmful addiction is something worth praising, and something far bigger to strive for. I also want to heavily thank my family, especially my dad, for being the most personal reason in my life for what I'm doing, and what I aim to do further in life. I also thank my cousins. Though the list is a little long, they shaped the old ideals I wanted to seek again in my life. I also want to give a hefty thanks to Mrs. G, Ms. Johnson, and Dr. Franklin, who all helped in the publishing phase of the book, along with helping to share it with the rest of the school, too. I also want to thank the people in Book Creator for making the book itself possible to begin with. 

I also dearly thank the many people I met in my classes, especially my friends, who ended up shaping my life in an entirely different manner. I also want to thank the Art Club members this year- there were a damn well amount of good memories from there. I also want to thank my teachers, especially Mr. Clayborn and Ms. Leil, for inspiring me to be far more social, and more profound in what I'm to do after Parkdale. I also want to thank my art teachers Mr. Chinkhota and Mr. O -  Practically the reason  I thought up doing the images for the book (and in a good mood too) was because of them. I dearly thank Mr. Adams for also helping spread the book, but also helping to copyright it, too. And in the end, I heartily thank my friends from middle school. I feel it'd be messed up to call them out from here without some of their permission, but, wow. They were - and I'm certain they still are, great people. 

44. To fall from the edge of the world, without feeling any form of emotions, regardless of the occurrence...

45. To never hear, taste, see, think, or feel anything in one's presence ever again...

I will still try to use my own pain to understand what you're going through. 

I will still try to talk to you about how you feel and what you're doing now. 

I will still try to lighten your heart with something safe for us both to smile. 

I will still try to softly open your hidden scars and heal what harm has been done to you. 

I will still try to talk to you every day and never judge your thoughts and ideas from what you see in life. 

"How to stop time: kiss. How to travel in time: read. How to escape time: music. How to feel time: write. How to release time: breathe." -Matt Haig, Reasons to Stay Alive

26. And also jog the other half of the miles!

28. And do that notorious pacer test on loop!!!