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Unaware of the Sad Longing FacesLoading...
Laurel ZumbachLoading...
When I was 7 my family and I would visit my grandma in the hospital. White walls, clean smell, sad longing faces, little hope. It was my favorite place. I found nothing odd about it. My Grammy was the only grandparent I had left for all the others had already passed. She was the sweetest old lady you would ever meet. She had a smile brighter than the sun and wrinkles all around her face showing she truly lived her best life. She would retell her stories with so much enthusiasm and love that you would never want to leave the little world she would create. We used to eat cookies and play go fish by her bedside (which I would always win). Before I left every time my Grammy would kiss my head and say.
“I love you to the moon, the stars, and back my little one.”
I would respond with the brightest smile on my face, “Forever and always.”
I loved her with my whole being. She was my sun in the dark world. But, one day we stopped visiting the hospital, I didn’t know why but I missed it. I missed my Grammy. Whenever I asked my Mom If we could visit Grammy she would frown and reply.
“Not today but when the time is right.”
The time would only once ever be right. If only then I knew what she meant by that if only I understood. It has been six years since I last saw my Grammy. Today is my thirteenth birthday and I am holding a letter from my Sun.
Dear Adley,
How are you my love? If you are reading this happy thirteenth birthday I am sorry I can’t celebrate it with you. You are probably wondering where I have been for a while. Well, Hunny I am in this wonderful place called heaven. When you would visit me in the hospital I was getting treated for Leukemia, I had cancer my darling. I knew I would not be able to beat it but I promise you I tried my very hardest. I'm sorry you had to find out this way. But, I couldn’t have you missing me or being scared of the world at such a young age. I wish I could have experienced the rest of your life with you, for I know you will do incredible things and will change the world. We will meet again when the time is right. Remember I am always with you even if I am not stood by your side. I love you to the moon, the stars, and back my little one.
Love,
Grammy
In the smallest most broken voice, I whispered back into the darkness that surrounded me now, “Forever and always Grammy, Forever and always.” For when I was seven my family and I would visit my grandma in the hospital when I was unaware of the sorrow our world contained.
“I love you to the moon, the stars, and back my little one.”
I would respond with the brightest smile on my face, “Forever and always.”
I loved her with my whole being. She was my sun in the dark world. But, one day we stopped visiting the hospital, I didn’t know why but I missed it. I missed my Grammy. Whenever I asked my Mom If we could visit Grammy she would frown and reply.
“Not today but when the time is right.”
The time would only once ever be right. If only then I knew what she meant by that if only I understood. It has been six years since I last saw my Grammy. Today is my thirteenth birthday and I am holding a letter from my Sun.
Dear Adley,
How are you my love? If you are reading this happy thirteenth birthday I am sorry I can’t celebrate it with you. You are probably wondering where I have been for a while. Well, Hunny I am in this wonderful place called heaven. When you would visit me in the hospital I was getting treated for Leukemia, I had cancer my darling. I knew I would not be able to beat it but I promise you I tried my very hardest. I'm sorry you had to find out this way. But, I couldn’t have you missing me or being scared of the world at such a young age. I wish I could have experienced the rest of your life with you, for I know you will do incredible things and will change the world. We will meet again when the time is right. Remember I am always with you even if I am not stood by your side. I love you to the moon, the stars, and back my little one.
Love,
Grammy
In the smallest most broken voice, I whispered back into the darkness that surrounded me now, “Forever and always Grammy, Forever and always.” For when I was seven my family and I would visit my grandma in the hospital when I was unaware of the sorrow our world contained.