A new book

by Esmée Cowing

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Night Poems
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Thank you to my friends, family, English teacher, and my whole poetry class! You were all wonderful sources of feedback and inspiration.
Table of Contents

Sleepless Night..........................................................................................4
A Bedtime Story About Strangers............................................................5
Body Lullaby.............................................................................................6
A Dream About the Backseat of Your Childhood Friend’s Minivan.....7
Portrait of Laika as a Rising Sun..............................................................8
Table of Contents

Sleepless Night..........................................................................................4
A Bedtime Story About Strangers............................................................5
Body Lullaby.............................................................................................6
A Dream About the Backseat of Your Childhood Friend’s Minivan.....7
Portrait of Laika as a Rising Sun..............................................................8
Sleepless Night
After “Nuit Blanche” by Amy Lowell

Each night, amid the buzzing blush of dusk,
A shadow-giant lumbers down my block,
Picks up my house, makes it his lantern-husk—
My bedroom window as his light, he walks

Down past the couple fighting, screaming threats,
And group of girls who giggle while they walk
(They’ll leave for other cities soon, forget
Each other), shoulders brushing as they talk.

The giant pads down to the city’s heart
A field of buildings sprouts between his toes
This high up, sounds unravel, come apart
In strands of siren-songs and roadkill throes

Arriving at the stippled sea, it seems
To coax him into liquid arms below
The hush of foam to share some deeper dream. 
Together and apart, our tide-breaths slow

Then, all at once, the yolk of dawn cracks through
And, back through murmurs of commuter trains,
The giant finds your block, returning you 
To where we bloom in annual refrains.

We’re planted in our garden, flesh and bone,
We waking giants, loving, loved, alone.
A Bedtime Story About Strangers

Open up the storybook and you’ll find
Norma 
who had a photographic memory 
grinning up at you from the front lawn
Jeff who cl
       aimed he had friends in the FBI on the porch 
eternally running his finger down a line 
of some 60-year-old newspaper
Thais the drinker whispering 
something in her husband’s ear
Lois, whose parents died in prison, 
Timmy
who waited until everyone was asleep and then
ran from bunk to bunk spraying everyone with water guns in the dark
Hugh 
and Jean 
and Jan 
and Jewel and 
       a hundred other pressed-flower people creased between the pages

no one remembers  the way Lois smiled or 
how Jan took her coffee. 

no one remembers
the joke Jewel told that one Tuesday evening when the lights were low
and the night was poised like a blue lid about to swing shut over the sky.

no one remembers         
no one lives forever
but 

the toothy, 
two-sugared, 
tuesday glory 
of having lived at all.
A Bedtime Story About Strangers

Open up the storybook and you’ll find
Norma 
who had a photographic memory 
grinning up at you from the front lawn
Jeff who cl
       aimed he had friends in the FBI on the porch 
eternally running his finger down a line 
of some 60-year-old newspaper
Thais the drinker whispering 
something in her husband’s ear
Lois, whose parents died in prison, 
Timmy
who waited until everyone was asleep and then
ran from bunk to bunk spraying everyone with water guns in the dark
Hugh 
and Jean 
and Jan 
and Jewel and 
       a hundred other pressed-flower people creased between the pages

no one remembers  the way Lois smiled or 
how Jan took her coffee. 

no one remembers
the joke Jewel told that one Tuesday evening when the lights were low
and the night was poised like a blue lid about to swing shut over the sky.

no one remembers         
no one lives forever
but 

the toothy, 
two-sugared, 
tuesday glory 
of having lived at all.
Body Lullaby

What absurdity is there greater than the body
A clay-lump of flesh and limbs and sweat
And something called a xiphoid process
And a head that hurts just thinking
About such a strange, bare-skinned
Animal

Still, what miracle is there greater 
Than a shared absurdity?
Holding someone else’s hand
Your heartbeats nudging each other

What life is there without the tenderness of a body?
It holds you in the cradle of your hips
Rocks you gently in your seat
Even when you try to sit still

Even when beads of pain 
Catch in your joints
When your spine 
Bow-strings
The skin on your back tight
Your body will creak out lullabies
Tap heartbeats to you 
Where your ear rests against the pillow
When the time comes
It will shut out the lights
A Dream About the Backseat of Your Childhood Friend’s Minivan

A summer swoon
A swath of swaying road
Ahead
Head turned back grinning at
The girl in the back
Seat
Sweat-stuck legs
Snacks and giggles that leave
Grit in the seams
Sea 
takes up the 
Whole window
Like a pool you could 
Dip your arm in
Whooping songs that
Tear through the blue wind
Like kites
Sunscreen
Salt 
Sweat
A sound so sweet
It clings to your hair for days
Once
before our parents told us not to
we closed our eyes 
pressed the heels of our hands
to our eyes as hard
as we could and
we exploded
watched our very own light show
burst into our eye-sockets
felt 
our Cupid’s bow 
nocked with an arrow of breath
felt 
our shoulder blades 
like two warm hands on our back
thought
what love there is
in us
Rings in the air
All the way home
Slouched under
The weight of a yellow afternoon
Eyes closed
Lulled by a lazy 
belly of heat
Blue bits of the day
Sifting through the air
You can only hear the minivan
Rumble and clatter
Chatter gone to mumbles
From the front seat
A head on your shoulder
Ahead of you
All the time
in the world
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